(Foray. 10 May 2011)
Life really is very ironic
There are things that you want to have
But it can never be yours and will never be yours.
Even though it hurts so badly but that is reality
And you can not do anything
To change that reality even you feel so badly for it
Even if you shed a lot of tears
Even if your heart wanted to burst
Because even if it so near
That you could...
How would you feel?
Why do you look at me like that?
As if I were a crazy oversensitive person in this room?
How would you yourself feel?
If you were told in your face that you aren't welcome?
That you aren't included in the plan?
Insulted in the face in front of people dear to your heart?
Not just once but many times?
Those maybe are innocent reflexes but the impact are very strong.
Left me reeling and dazed.
Don't even what had happened.
So fast and then gone
but the after effect was so powerful
it left me weak and in pain
so distraught and traumatized.
How would you feel?
When these things happen to you?
I might have become over sensitive.
However, am just human with feelings and emotions.
I don't blame me or anyone.
It just happens but the pain is there.
I just need your understanding.
03-16-11/LD 105/PBTS,Baguio City/Foray
SOUL, WHY DOWNCAST?
why so downcast
why the sorrowful face
why the sad look in your eyes
brings tears to my eyes
sadness to my heart
making my innermost constrict
zapping the energy in me
wish i could
wish i really could
but know i can't
know i can't
if only...
if only...
(Foray.Feb. 7, 2009)
UNTITLED
it's been a long while since the last
now i don't know if i will last
time for me to go on
but things keep me down
hope to see you on
when i get back to you soon
getting back to you
who knows when
but that's for sure
be there, be there
(JSB.Aug. 13, 2008; 12:04 am; SIL Dorm)
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